Rants


Getting taken hostage by “talkaholics” is a recurring theme in my life, and as part of the Boundary Project I am learning to identify these types and not let myself get within striking range, and in the event that I inadvertently do end up getting captured, work out a method to jailbreak myself and a protocol for avoiding getting trapped again.  (more…)

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This is “Case Zero” in which I began to enforce the new boundaries I am building. Chi was now getting zapped as if running into electric fencing where there had been nothing before, as I got more and more committed to clearly setting my intentions and asserting my newly-developing boundaries.  (more…)

As I mentally distance myself more and more from the toxic marriage and consciously project the reality of ending it, I explore the topic of my relationship to music sans Chi.   (more…)

I finally “get it”… (more…)

Chi has been behaving exceptionally well recently.  There are occasional flare-ups, but they are brief and resolve quickly. Nevertheless, he still has to go, and this is why…
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The creative kick Chi had been on since spring continued through the summer, and the music he was composing was a distinct departure from what we have been doing to date. I was very excited about it, and while the ordeal of trying to figure out audio engineering on my own so we could record it was driving me to the edge of genuine madness as was still having him here in the house, I was game to keep going.  (more…)

On putting off the overwhelmingly tedious hassle of doing our taxes.  (more…)

A lot of things have been pissing me off lately.  This is one more….  (more…)

People may wonder why despite our considerable existing and ongoing creative output there is very little new content uploaded to the Panache Orchestra websites on anything resembling a frequent basis. Why might this be?  (more…)

Since our new producer was scheduled to come over the next day to commence the pre-production process for the new album, I wanted to hit the ground running and was successful in getting Chi to sit down at the kitchen table in a seemingly reasonable frame of mind with pen, paper and a list of rock-like Panache pieces to draw from as an initial planning stage for the new album that was to feature our rock repertoire.  As I fully expected, it was quite an ordeal.    (more…)

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